2007-12-04 - 7:55 p.m.

It feels a little better to write here, because I know no one is really paying attention. Maybe that's why I used to post things online--for people to see. It's not like that now.
So Travis died in October and Casey died in November. Death has always been difficult for me. I'm sure it's hard for everyone else too, but I cry, and mope, and dwell. I guess that's how I process things. It seems like other people process by being fine and not bothered at all.
I wish I would have told you the things I loved about you both. I didn't make the time, and I didn't realize how short our time was. If anything, it makes me realize that I need to appreciate everyone.