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2003-04-11 - 7:35 p.m.

the swans love a project girl

matt and i went walking last night. i decided we were going to harass the evil swans. then we saw them from across the lake. they swam over to us and just stared. i was so transfixed that i didn't want to chase them anymore. they were so peaceful and zen. i wanted to wade into the water and swim around with them. matt made me a cd with some newbirth (lookin for a project GIRL!!) on it from new orleans and a cd with all the pictures he took. radical. when i listen to this cd i'm right back there at the Maple Leaf. it's nice

i think i'm beginning to accept the reality of the situation. steven yelled at me the other day for being guarded. and he was right which is annoying. it's easy to acknowledge this, but not so easy to fix it. so in the words of clint maedgen, "i've still got a long way to crawl". there are definitely things yet to be completely resolved within me. things that i'm not okay with leaving as is. working on it.

baah